Since you've last heard from me, I've had two run in's with our past -
-My husband's former business partner came into my office. This waste of space stole tens of thousands of dollars from us and sent our lives into a tailspin from which we are just beginning to recover.
-A dream of a former employer of mine who owes us a decent sized sum of money, which added to the above mentioned tailspin.
After the butterflies all cleared, my main thought was "WHY?" Why are these people surfacing? Why today? What am I to learn from this? What do I need to reconcile immediately?
There is so much from these two that contributed to a horrible downward spiral in my husbands outlook and subsequently put a strain on our marriage. They are 2/3 of a Trifecta of Bullshit that nearly beat us completely. Typing this, I'm realizing it all started around a year ago to the date.
Now what? Do I need to revisit this time in my life and make some peace with it? (I really don't want to ever go back to that place again - it was so dark and cold and it truly seemed endless).
Having said that, I believe that I would much rather walk forward, to the light and the truth. My sweetheart has emerged from that dark place a more centered individual, and we are stronger as a couple for having come through it. I would like to scrape these two pieces of filth off of my shoe and continue in the positive direction. I will remain strong and honest, and believe that life will take care of these people.
Thanks for helping me figure it out.
Monday, August 11, 2008
The Past
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Maybe the lesson is to rise above from not only the ashes but to rise above the horrible behavior of others. You can be beaten up, but not beaten.
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